What can we gain by sailing to the moon if we are not able to cross the abyss that separates us from ourselves. This is the most important of all voyages of discovery and without it, all the rest are not only useless but disastrous. Thomas Merton
Days 36, 35, 34 and 33
Life intervened, or actually I allowed it to. I am finding that in keeping with the spirit of living as much as I can in the present and still planning or at least goaling to the future; I can have single minded focus on an objective at the same time stopping to smell the roses.
Thomas Merton was a Trappist Monk whose quotes and writings just recently celebrated their 100th year. Here is another one I really like and seems applicable to this post that is coming.
“Why do we spend our lives striving to be something we would never want to be, if we only knew what we wanted? Why do we waste our times doing things, which, if we only stopped to think about them, are the opposite of what we were made for?” Thomas Merton
I use to think that if this did not happen, I would literally fall apart. Like my kennel/ranch dream, when it fell apart I did too. I got lost in despondency from that dependence. But the truth is that the loss of the kennel helped me shape my true passion into a joy as well as a passion. Music….well Ray Charles said it best….”I was born with music inside of me. Music is one of my parts. Like my ribs, my kidneys, my liver, my heart. Like my blood. It was a force already within me when I arrived on the scene. It was a necessity for me-like food or water.”
My other loves are writing and photography. A whole host of life and work experiences and those combined with my utterly unique personality, well I was born to do things. Truth be known I have been searching for a tribe/family to be a part of, a goal that would become a legacy and while I have found bits and pieces of those, they have not settled like a “glove” on me….
IF by some chance, the lawyer gets a contact, I will take it,
IF by some chance there is someone out there reading this and they know how to get me in the door for a real sit down and I mean REAL discussion, I will take it.
I will come to the table and have the discussion.
There is no finer thing than to actually finish the goal, but if there is one thing that I have learned on this journey…is this one unchanging thing…Dreams almost never arrive in the package you thought and in some cases the very least expected package and place as well….
So here is to the last 32 days…