In the Round Tour Toyota Center, Houston November 12 2013 Taken By Wylde Soul Photography
In the Round Tour
Toyota Center, Houston
November 12 2013
Taken By Wylde Soul Photography

We build too many walls and not enough bridges…Isaac Newton

64 Days

Dear Josh-

Today…is…a sad day…well a very thoughtful one, accompanied by memories and tears..For one-It is the one year anniversary of the death of my heart man in dog form Ridge. I still miss him every day. I can’t even begin to put into words…just miss him-the very real raw ache. It came to me that our pets, fur babies, companions ..well they are the one place/person that allows us to love and know beyond all certainty that they will not hurt us…I am talking about the way that humans can and often do. Pets allow us to be fully connected in safety, to love without reason or explanation, to just accept that love and be that love and give it back unconditionally with reason or explanation.

RIP-Ridge -My beloved Man.
RIP-Ridge -My beloved Man.

I had the chance yesterday to stop in at a business after hours being hosted by the ONE person in this whole campaign that has literally never lost faith in me, texts me at seemingly random moments when I am ready to quit and tells me she literally prays for me to succeed every night. That she wakes every morning knowing that I will achieve this…how do you accept such an outpouring of love and support? I allow it to fill me with awe, grace, gratitude and overwhelming unexplainable love. Period. Lina Lawson you will be the first person I call.

Then last night I went to a concert of Brazilian Jazz, folk Music. A person I am acquainted with asked last night how my “Josh Groban” thing was coming along.

Going to go sidebar for a moment and then answer–I follow a writer on Facebook and she said yesterday that when people ask her how things are going she is going to be completely honest and authentic even if it is not comfortable for them or her. That it was time for us to stand up and be real. Every day is not a rosy picnic. We have ups, we have downs. We fall in love, We realize that love has changed and we need something else, someone else, something more, someone who offers more. Different things. I believe she is right and correct. I think we do need to be all of our real selves good days, bad days AND as empathetic humans we need to see it and witness it for that person-whomever we are with in that moment.

So I answered her, I am going on tour with Josh Groban. This book has become so much more than it was and what it started as. It is a symbol of dreams, how we achieve them, that they can be achieved and they frequently change their form but they do happen-we just have to keep believing in them. It will happen. It is about his dreams, my dreams and the dreams of every single person out there. We have to be and do for others just as much as we do and be for ourselves. I really believe that is the whole point of being in service. That balance between personal wants, desires, needs and those people that surround us.

We are all connected, You, me, the person in the next room, the barista. There is no barrier, You are a human being, so am I. We all want, no need to be seen. To know that we are appreciated. You feel unknown by those call themselves your fans…they do not know the real you. That is not true, every single time you sing, create music, it is you. EVERY artist always places pieces of themselves in each piece of art. It cannot connect without that piece of us.

I know I said I was going to create a second piece to the Chicago Theatre but that can wait for the book. Today’s post really wrote itself. It felt like I needed to step out and be the rawest most authentic self I could be.

So here is my request…If this post touches you, please share it on your social media feed. I know that seems selfish but I know beyond the shadow of a doubt, this book, goal, dream has become much more than a tour book and it is not going to reach Josh Groban’s management team or even himself without help from all of us; all of us who have been told we are nothing, not important, or that our dreams were too big…let’s make all our dreams come true…they all matter and we are all important and matter.

Until tomorrow



*PS-Dear Reader- The only favor I ask is that you follow the story, Share if you are so inclined. Know that I am following dreams as you do.

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